You Have It But You Don’t Have It
by Dean Rader
John Ashbery, in Memoriam 1927-2017
The poet has returned once more
to an empty piece of paper
on the desk. The poet imagines
you in your house or at work
about to arrive at the poem
that has not yet begunto be,
the poem this paper is there
for, the poem the emptiness
is set to receive. You are tired. You
don’t feel like attending to a poem,
and yet here you are reading these
words written for you. The poet
cannot believe their poem will have
traveled so far into the future
to find you. For the poet it is still
the past but for you time is always
the present and you have become
the poem’s new author, writing it
into the book that is your life. You hate it.
You love it. You read your own lines to the
darkness that has become the brightness
this poem was written for you to be.
Published on May 9, 2023
First published in Harvard Review 60.